replace your tired heart with mine

today i am sad.

i am sure it will get better as time progresses and healing begins, but today i am sad and i am ok with that. yesterday some amazing people lost their jobs where i work and there has been and will be a lot of change. and to be quite honest, the change has happened too fast for me to digest. i know what some of you are thinking, nicole, it's just a place of work... but seriously, it is more than that, i spend 40+ hours with these people every week and many of them were my first friends after moving to nashville and have now become my good friends.

the music industry is a horrible one right now for profits, etc. and i understand that it needs to happen and it is expected but for right now i am going to send my my heart out to my friends and just be sad.

the past several weeks, or probably more like several months have eroded at my spirit (for more reasons than just at work) and i have sadly let that happen.

but the great thing about being sad is that i can take comfort in things. my teddy bear, pictures of good times, great conversations with friends and family and of course, music. i know i work in the music industry and its easy to forget what its like to be a fan of music rather than just work in it. i came home today, laid in my bed, stared at the ceiling and listened to 'astronomy' by bleach. i haven't listened to the album in a long time, but i was just going through my stack of cds and saw it and thought PERFECT... then i continued the evening with no television, a little internet (to chat with friends and blog, of course) but with just a ton of music. some stuff i haven't had a chance to hear yet and some old favorites (i.e. astronomy). and now i am closing out the evening with some by sea.

all in all, music isn't a person or anything that can physically give me anything but it is comforting. it's like getting a hug and being assured that everything will be ok. so i leave with you tonight the lyrics to a song that really spoke to me tonight..

i haven't felt good in months

the well has run dry, all at once

the habits come easy, but they're so hard to break

i really need to hear, to hear you say

peace be still

i am with you

rest in me for one more night

peace be still

i am with you

replace your tired heart with mine

so i'll sing songs of life

for all these broken hearts

just like mine

and i'll lay down all this pride

so i can hear you whisper

that it's all right

peace be still

i am with you

rest in me for one more night

peace be still

i am with you

replace your tired heart with mine

and i'm so sorry

i haven't come home

but i'm coming home soon

"tired heart" by bleach