blue and yellow

"well you never would've thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you can not miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it
it won't come your way
well you'll never find it, if you're looking for it
i should've done something, but i've done it enough
by the way, your hands were shaking
i'd rather waste some time with you..." the used

it is amazing to me to see the power that one person can have over another human being. not so much in a negative way, though it does amaze me too to see that people base their lives on what others think of them, but i want to focus more on the positive aspect of power. a simple card, greeting or hug can change a person's day from bad to good and i just love that thought.
i just completed another beautiful episode of extreme makeover home edition and every single time i am reminded of how wonderfully blessed i am. i love when people come together for a good cause or just for good people.
i like to think that i am not a mean person, i know i am not perfect in any way but i try to please everyone possible. yes, at times this addiction to service can do more harm than help. so where is the balance? i am constantly reminded daily of all the people to help, but i have no idea where to start... do i want to be a missionary, work for a non-profit, maybe a company that donates a lot of money or who knows? in the end all i know is that i want to help people, it doesn't have to be millions or even hundreds. to me, one positively influenced life is a lifetime of success.
i just wished some people could understand that...