i know i need to write, but not sure what about...

last night was rediculous. ok, let me preface it with the facts:
- i worked from 9-5 wednesday, thursday and friday
- on both wed and thursday had things after work until about 10pm.
- thursday night i had a good conversation with a friend on the phone until 2am
- i was EXHAUSTED (yes, i know it's my own fault)
but, i have the entire weekend off! soooo, i was so excited for a great night of rest. i get ready for bed on friday and can't fall asleep like i had hoped. it took a while. then i wake up at like 2:30am and am pretty awake, i wasn't cold or anything, i just couldn't sleep. so about a half hour later i fall asleep. then at 5:00am i wake up! and this time i am WIDE AWAKE and frustrated. i got up to see if the weather had actually predicted correctly that we would have snow, and we do! so about 45min to an hour later i finally am able to fall back asleep. BUT 7:30am decides to roll around and i am up. so i read a little and took a shower.
there are probably several things that contributed to my sleep deprivation. one of my roommates had suggested that i should have blogged last night because i was fairly distraught after the episode of injustice.
i absolutely love this show, it's beautiful and i hope it goes on for another season... anyways, last night's topic was on the death penalty which is one topic that i am severely passionate about. because to me it is the ultimate human rights violation, but that is another subject and i could argue for hours on it, so i will leave it there. but for all the previous episodes of injustice the national justice project has succeeded and in last night's episode they didn't. a man died though he didn't commit the crime! i was crying and crying. i was doing my best to hold it in, but this man died. i understand it's a television show but i can't distinguish the difference sometimes, i get very emotionally involved in shows. so i was quiet for like 10 minutes and just pissed. because it happens! people die every day from injustices that they cannot control, whether that be from the death penalty to starvation. maybe i should have blogged last night to get this off my mind.
but before i went to bed, i was reading through the bible and a quote just slapped me in the face and kicked me in the shins last night. i had to re-read it like 5 times. i am reading through mark right now and Jesus says, "whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours" (mark 11:24 niv). how beautiful is that? i have been asking for a lot in prayer recently, probably too much. in the past week i've had to stop myself cause i felt like my prayers became selfish. i began to ask for things that probably were not in my best interest and i thought to myself there are so many people who would argue against this quote. but i would argue for it. here is why... if we truly believed then wouldn't we satisfied with all that we already have? so the unselfish prayer that we are to pray would be answered. not sure if that makes any sense, but it does to me. sure there are millions of people who would be like, 'well, i haven't won the lottery'; 'i am getting divorced'; 'my kids are disobedient'; etc. but i am learning that instant gratification doesn't come from God, it's not His style of work. our prayers are answered, but in ways we do not expect and if we can see the light through the dark lenses we like to view the world in, then i believe that is when we believe that our prayers have been heard and granted.
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on another note, it's snowing and it's cold... but IT'S AWESOME. i am so glad i don't have to work today because then i do not have to dread the snow! expect pictures of me playing in it later :)