the state of the world

we all have our theories. some preach apocalypse, others preach karma... but honestly, if the world is heading in this direction, i don't want to see where it ends up in 20 years.

and i am not blaming things on natural disasters, the biggest disaster is truly ourselves. we create the drama that consumes our lives. where to begin?

people are so full of hate and distrust that we constanly live on the defensive which doesn't leave us too open to new relationships (friendships, etc.) with people and we all turn against eachother... neighbor against neighbor leading all the way up to west versus east (not the us, but essentially civilizations). in the past week, lives have been stolen. whether it be possessions or death, one man took it into his hands to harm another and we hear about it EVERYWHERE! the news doesn't help, but i can't help but be obsessed with it. but move past the neighborhood robbery. what about injustice.

this word consumed me for years. i was born lucky. i don't suffer from famine, disease, slavery, abuse, etc. but people do and what do we do? we look the other way. how the hell can one look the other way when someone is reaching their hand out to you? don't get me wrong, i do the same too. i will NEVER forget the time i went to dc to work with the homeless. it was during a horrible snow storm and a friend and i were walking to one of the monuments... there was a homeless man screaming in agony (a scream that still vividly plays through my mind) of a man rolling around trying to get the steam coming from the metro below the street. this was in my own damn country.

i could write pages and pages on my frustration to the world. but i guess i should stop myself. i guess i am frustrated after having a discussion with a friend. she imed me we talked about hearing about the tragic accident of a band, bayside, where their drummer lost his life. (rip john holohan). but then i asked if she had heard of a couple bands whose pretty much every posession have been stolen. we then proceeded to talk about the horrible crime committed against the girlfriend of the guy from the junior varsity. these things have all happened recently in the music scene, which is a small percentage of the world. so if shit like this happens in such a small part of the world, shit is happening in the rest of it and it breaks my heart.

and people ask why i don't want to bring children into this world...