spectators always have it easy...

isn't it always amazing to see someone go after their dream and strive to follow their calling? it's always fun to watch but when you are that person it's not so easy. the cliche "easier said than done" pops into mind.
i love watching people develop into who they want to be, it's amazing. there is something so heart warming seeing people who are happy doing what they feel is the best thing in the world. for example, last night i went to see the rocket summer. this man (the rocket summer), in his early twenties has the energy of a college freshman who's ready to take over the world. we all know that musicians make little to no money, especially those who are independent artists playing for crowds of 750-1000 a night. but when one stands on that stage and exude rays of happiness and gratitude you can't help but catch some of that sunshine and feel a little warm inside.
as for me, i feel like there is some sort of gravitational pull for me to go to nashville. i have absolutely NO IDEA why, but i feel like this is my calling for the moment. i really do whole-heartedly feel that God wants me to do this. but as i mentioned earlier, it's always easier to be a viewer and not always so easy to be what is being viewed.
everyone is so excited for me and everything, but i am scared. i don't know where i am going with this. i had a direction when i began but i feel as if i am just rambling.

well. it's almost monday, which means i have 5 days until my life gets really crazy...