the sky is not falling

last night i blogged and this afternoon i felt like i needed to blog again in reponse to it.
at church we are reading through my favorite book, the book of ephesians, and today's message helped me realize that i am just human and i cannot be in control of things all the time. in chapter 5, verse 15 it says, "be very careful, then, how you live-not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil." and my pastor said that we are good at trusting God with all the big decisions in our lives (i.e. me moving out to tennessee) but rarely do it with the small decisions that we make each day. not only that but how many opportunities do we pass up each day with having the chance to reach out to people or experience all that we can?

right now, the way i like to describe where i am at is i have given God the keys to my car and have let Him drive thus far, but now i am getting impatient and i am ready to take over because i feel like we are not getting to the final destination fast enough or are taking a route i would avoid. so i am sitting in the passenger seat whining... by stressing over the stupid things daily i am missing opportunities to grow as a person and help those around me grow, you know? it's like while whining i am not appreciating the scenery on our drive... this may only make sense to me...

on another note... friends are awesome and i am beyond grateful for the people i have back home but also thankful for the people i have met out here... people don't have to let me into their lives and vice-versa, but there is something so beautiful that comes out of a connection that people have whether it's from being friends of friends or someone you meet at church or live with, the way people come together just blows me away. if i didn't have some of these people in my life, i wouldn't want to know where i would be now...

too much thinking for the afternoon, and surely too much myspace... i must get off :)