can someone pinch me?

my life makes no sense, really it doesnt. there is no logic in it. for those of you that know me well you know i am much more analytical than not, everything is an equation, or so i thought :)
i know for a fact that 2 apples + 2 apples = 4 apples, but i am slowly learning that life is so much more than any mathematical equation in the world (including those that take pages and pages of genius work to solve).
i look back over the past year and realize that it is nothing short of a miracle, yes a miracle. imagine taking one end of a spectrum and ending up in the complete opposite place a year later, that's me. no it hasn't been a year yet since i've moved (that is coming up in about 1.5 months) rather, a year ago i was full of uncertainty. i was about to quit a HORRIBLE job and jump out into the unknown. really, i look back and cannot believe my lapse of logical thinking to do something like that.
i am a political science major from southern california who moved out to nashville, tennessee to work in christian music; how does that work out?
but somehow, but the grace of God, it did work out... i won't go indepth or anything but i sit here in awe because the past year has shown me how intricate and detail oriented God really is. i really do feel like i am in a dream and am waiting to wake up, maybe it all will feel more real then?

anyways... as much as i want it to be, life cannot be mathematical or based on an equation.