getting rid of noise

a couple weeks ago i wrote an entry 'speeding through life'.  to recap you on it, i challenged myself to go the speed limit ALL THE TIME.  

monday morning (after making this challenge) i was driving to work and was running super late and there is a section of my drive that the speed limit is 30 mph, but everyone normally goes like 40, but i went 30 that morning.  and you know who was waiting at that corner?  a cop with a radar gun!  he stopped my car and told me to proceed and pulled the car behind me over.  ANY other morning i would have been speeding, so i truly believe that God honors our random attempts to get closer to him.  

this brings me to this week's challenge.  in church the topic was prayer and being more of a listener than a talker when we spend time with God.  while trying to fit more quiet times into my schedule i thought, i spend a lot of time in my car, i need to drive in silence for the week.  so this week i will not play a cd or turn on the radio while running around nashville (which anyone who knows me will be very difficult).  but i do hope for some great conversation, especially listening with my amazing God this week :)  

change

it's hard for me to let go of things that i have held on to so tightly. with new things come new hope, but what if that hope doesn't sustain? that is my biggest fear in change, what if it is never that good again? granted, living in the past is never a good thing to do. but change is scary and i know God will catch me when i fall and carry me through the tough times, but i am still scared...

i was going through old blogs trying to find one specifically but didn't end up finding it. however, i did re-read this one he doesn't even need a label maker and it comforts my fear to know that i am not in control and there is a much better person in charge of organizing my life :)

speeding through life

today my pastor said something that i felt was directed at me as if it were a brick thrown at my head. he talked about being addicted to hurrying which i do, i am always in a rush, i can't sit down and relax, i NEVER take naps, it's how i've been since i was born :)

so my challenge to myself this week is simple yet difficult... drive the speed limit

we all do it, go 5-10 miles above, just enough to not really feel like we're breaking the law... but this week, i am going to try not to be in such a rush and to begin it will be with driving. i'll report how it goes in a few days.