just when i thought the day would end on an up note...

it has been twenty-four hours since i have gone on the internet. it was difficult at times but i made it! in review the day wasn't too exciting and i probably didn't spend as much time in prayer as i would have hoped, but all-in-all it was good.
i thought i would end the evening on a positive note since it was a gloomy day outside and the weather kind of began to take over my attitude (that and my lack of sleep because of the thunderstorm last night). so i decided to watch "pay it forward."
the movie was amazing up until the end.
NOTE: IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN THE MOVIE AND PLAN ON SEEING IT, PLEASE DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER AS I WILL SPOIL THE ENDING FOR YOU...
honestly, there was no logical reason for him to die at the end. what benefit came from it? it just brought you back to where you were in the beginning... the world is a horrible place. so why did i spend two hours watching a movie that built up some hope within me when in the end all they did was deflate my balloon of hope! his self-sacrificial act was a heroic one and it was good to see all the people who were blessed by his efforts. but couldn't they give him a book deal, send him on a public speaking tour, give him a website? did the kid really have to die? wouldn't it have been better if the thug kids who had the knife, maybe their lives were changed by his "pay it forward" idea and they too decided to give the knife up and help other kids in an after school program or something? for the first 90% of the movie i really thought that i would go out and buy it and do nice things for people... but in the end will i too get stabbed by a knife for my good efforts (not literally). whatever happend to the concept of karma?
as i conclude, i am not a fan of the movie "pay it forward." it makes me want to start a similar movement against stupid ironic endings in movies that make no sense! i do not recommend it unless you want to have your hopes built up like spending all day with some clay and a pottery wheel only to shatter it like taking that pot and dropping it off of a 50-story building.

i still have hope that the world isn't completely horrible...