a lot on my mind, a heart ready to explode and confetti in my hair

i left rocketown tonight sweaty, covered in confetti, probably a little bruised, without any ability to hear left, exhausted with no voice; and i couldn't be better. it was the first show that i've been to since i've moved to nashville that i have had an awesome time all-around. i was immersed in the crowd to see one of my favorite bands of all time :)

words cannot describe the show. first of all, it was thursday (the band, not the day) and it is always a treat to see them. but to walk out of a show emotionally exhausted is something i wasn't expecting. when thursday sang "sugar in the sacrament" with the lead singer of mewithoutyou it was explosive. these two men POURED everything they had into singing this song and in the end looked like they were going to pass out.
there is a huge story why this particular song moved me but i am too tired to type it out... :)

well i am sleepy, so i will write more later. i just had to say that i had a great time on my 6 month anniversary of being in the south :)

losing my californianess

so today i did something that i have been trying to postpone for a while now...

6:34am central standard time


9:42am central standard time


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i got a tennessee drivers license. i then went to get my emissions checked and get new plates but since the car is still registered under my mom's name, i have to wait on the plates.. which is probably good cause it's more change than i can handle in a day...

HECK YES...

yesterday i was offered a job at emi, i start on monday!

amistad

these are two of my best friends who were in town for about a day and it was a GREAT day, though short :( they just graduated from pepperdine and are in a cross country roadtrip to move back home...
they arrived last night and it was amazing to see them! i took them downtown where we ate at the old spaghetti factory, had some wine and a lot of good laughs :) then we walked around a little and came home. we watched a walk to remember and then passed out. this morning i took them to the pancake pantry where we had another great meal and just good friend time. sadly they had to leave early to make it to maryland today.
though it was just for a short time it was needed greatly to see some familar faces and just have fun, i really miss that...

global night commute

on saturday night i did something to step out of the comfort zone i have built for myself. 2,000+ of us marched from target on columbia ave to the people's church (3 miles) in the wind and some rain and upon our arrival we got our packets and found a nice spot on the grass where we would proceed to spend the night. no tents, wet grass and one cause.
we did this to symbolize what 50,000+ children do every single night in northern uganda. they leave their homes to escape to a safe haven so that they can evade capture by the rebel army to then be sent into sex trafficking or brainwashed into a killing machine.
i wrote some letters, one to president bush and one to senator frist and then worked on an art project. will my effort change the world? no. but our collective efforts put a huge imprint onto our surrounding environment. about 55,000 people did this worldwide on the same evening, and i know here there were several people on the road asking what we were doing. spreading knowledge is important, but i also learned that it is important to not remain idle. i'm glad i did it, i had a great talk with God as i was attempting to sleep amongst 2,000+ energetic people and He gave me peace about a lot of things.
which makes me sad looking back that i am so quick to lose that sense of peace to the anxieties of the world. i had to write that previous post to get some stuff off my chest, but in the end i'll be fine :)

psalm

"search me, o God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. see if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." -psalm 139:23-24

too much for my brain to handle...

issue 1: job status
i have had about 3 interviews with emi now and will find out by friday if i get the job, i am SUPER nervous and am preparing for a huge cry fest if i don't get it. yes, i know, God has something better for me, but i can allow myself to be emotional for like a day, right? i am just praying for the strength to give it to God, regardless of the outcome...
issue 2: one FREAKING year
it has been approx one year and three days since i departed the place i like to call pepperdine. yes, over a year since graduation, can you believe it? but the crazy thing is that i feel like i have amounted to nothing post-graduation. i haven't sold out to the man yet, but it looks like that just might happen in this next year...
issue 3: money
it really is the root of all evil
issue 4: jcpenney
it really needs to end here, before i go insane. new registers should mean that nicole gets a new job, right? (refer to issue 1)
issue 5: allergies
spring weather is nice, but my head feels like it's going to explode

there are other issues i would rather not discuss but, my head and heart are overwhelmed which makes it a PERFECT time for some old friends to come into town! yup, my friends are about 2 hours from nashville right now and i am SOOOOOOOO excited to see them, maybe get a couple of drinks and spill my guts to people who know me :) i cannot wait!